Day 1

Today began day 1 of my Spring Break. I am so focused on two things this week, working and getting my work done. Plan for spring break did not work out for lots of reasons, but its alright but it will all work out (I'm really trying to believe that).

Hits of the day
- The huntsville art museum
- Being able to pic up extra hours at work
- Having great friends to help me out even when they may not want to

Misses of the day
- Not having my car (Kerwin needs a car asap)
- Very bad hair
- Not getting any school work done

Anyway I have a few petitions of God that I would rather not say, but I ask that you please just pray for a breakthrough for me. That's all for day 1. Nite.

Tyler Perry....

For all those who haven't seen Madea's Family's Reunion it is a must-see. I have seen the play and the movie was nothing like I thought is would be. The movie is just wonderful and a serious discussion movie. It mades me and my girls think and gave us hope of something better for us one day. During the movie I was saying to Jailyn, "I'm gonna pray, I'm gonna pray.." Then I was saying " I'm gonna pray and I'm gonna fast..." and it was so crazy but I thought I was gonna cry. By the end of the movie I had hope that somewhere out there was a wonderful that God has been preparing for me. I can't wait to see what God has for me. But for now I know that I am not ready for him. I would like to think that I am preparing to give my best to him and he is preparing to give his best to me. There's no need to half step, it is possible to get the best man possible as long as I let God do it for me. Please see this movie, bootleg or not, it will help you to embrace all of the love around you with family, friends, and otherwise. Love you all!!

Spring Break!!!

Bittersweet that all I can say to describe this. I'm glad that we're getting a break from classes but at the same time I'm mad cause I'll be in huntsville. That was fine during Christmas break because I was so broke but now its not. I'm still broke but I don't want to be here. But I'm gonna take this time to make more money(hopefully) and get my school work done. Next year ladies I will not be doing this so we gotta get our stuff together or else we're all gonna stay here together.

Okay so you know I'll be updating everyday right?! :)

P.S. Here's a picture fromthe banquet for those who were not there.

Just Ask!!!

So scratch that last blog. Just ask and you will know if that person is worth breaking down over or trying to figure out something about. Sometimes is takes being straight up and asking for what you want to find out who is really is worthy of your time. Just make sure you ask God to guide your steps and definetly your words. And prepare yourself for any answer. Make God your number 1 consultant. Friends may give you good advice but sometimes they can't cut it. Talk to God about everything because He will hear and answer your prayer. I tried to upload a pic so u can understand what I mean but its not working so, I'll try again lata.

Songs that make me think a little bit...

Okay you know how you have those songs that make you think of...well I can't speak for everyone else but I can speak for myself. Mariah Carey's song Breakdown speaks of a young lady interested in someone but when they don't get the same response emotionally from him she acts as if she doesn't care. So many times as females we do that and act like we don't care knowing good and well that we do. It really hurts to feel rejected and know that before this person came into your life you could hold it all together. Then it seems you're doing things you would have never done before and before you know it you are confused about everything. LOL. I know you ladies feel me. Lets just say you get to the point where you feel like you're hooked and you can't understand why but you're trying to act as if you don't. Basically eventually you reach your breaking point wherever that may be for you. In Musiq's song Something he talks about a lady that he can't seem to get out of his head because there is just something about her that draws him. Its something in the ways she talks and walks that makes him curious that he doesn't want to leave. And when she asks if their love will grow he says he doesn't know. But if she sticks around then she will know. And he says again that because he doesn't know that he doesn't want to leave her now.

I don't know guys, I know we've all felt this way at some point in our lives. and sometimes when you don't think anyone knows how you feel there are clearly others who have gone through the same thing. It kinda makes you wonder if you should sometimes breakdown and get over it or find out what that something is about that person.

What do you guys think?

Play'd Again?

Thinking about be ing honest with myself has caused me to draw a couple of conslusions. I have avoided being honest with myself and those around me because of how I would feel. Doing this will cause me to have to put my pride and my guard down and make me quite vulnerable. Being honest with myself means accepting things as they are and dealing with them. I want to give up as I always do and become a man-hater again but I don't think I have the energy and I'm tired of escaping that way. My first instinct at most times is to hide or stay home all the time and sleep. I have always asked the Lord to lead me in these situations but it seems that this time it didn't work out and that it may never work out. I have to accept that and not give up hope but just relax and take care of me and wait for whoever he will be one day. One piece of advice though, everytime someone is not honest with you and you find out later it hurts so try not to do that to someone else. Be honest and straightup. So that everyone around you will know how you are for the jump. Okay for real you guys this is me being very honest and I honestly am more confused than ever.

Happy Love Day!!!

On a day like today a bitter/loving female like me would be depressed but this year I was determined not to sulk in what I didn't have. Instead I planned ahead of time and bought a shirt that says "Kiss Me" and wore it today. I woke up a little disappointed cause I knew what day it was but still I wore my shirt anyway. I gave gifts to my friends and other people who are important to me. I didn't get kissed but its alright because I was happy all day. I gave myself something to be happy about. I had to work tonight and even went in there with a smile on my face. I know that I do want someone that my heart skips for, that will make me feel all mushy, but at the same time is my friend. I want all of that but in time that will come. For now I just thank God for my parents, family, friends and people who I didn't even realize cared. Jailyn keeps saying its our year and all we have to do is claim it but first we have to be honest with ourselves. I'm still trying to understand what that means and how it pertains to me. But anyway I will ponder on it and continue another day. There are only 5 minutes left of Valentine's Day 2006 I hope you've told someone that you love them. Until tomorrow....
Happy Love Day!

Here's an Update!

Okay I don't have anything to talk about that I wouldn't be afraid for others to read. SoI'll update you on what you already know. School is hard of course but with God's help I've been able to take the time to study and do my best. Working has been a chore and sadly lately I've been quite strapped for money, but that's alright too cause the Lord knows. I've decided not tobe bitter this year, cause usually at this time I start to get mad the world and not just at men. I was on a rampage during christmas break and I was mad at all men (not really thoguh cause I still love them.) Anyway this Valentine's Day I'm gonna enjoy the day and not let get depressed eating chocolate and watching sappy movies. Nope none of that this year. Moving on to other things though, Kelle I know that you want to travel and I would love to travel too but in thinking about my future I'm not sure where I want to go after I graduate. Not even for the first year. So I'm just wondering where I can see myself, because though I want to travel I need to have somewhere to live first. Okay I'm getting writers block so ladies here's a song to take you in to the Sabbath Superhero by Brian McKnight and Fred Hammond. Listen to this song if you can. Until next time ladies(S.A.L.S.A., Inc.) and other guests, hopefully I'll have exciting something to tell you next time.

Another Day Just Chillin.

Another school day has gond by and I'm chillin now cause I've gotten most of my school work done. I've learned to consume myself in my school work and nothing else. But its cool though cause that is why I'm in college anyway. So... I have nothing else to say but Kelle I've been trying to remember to pray every night at 9pm. That's all until next time.

Krys

Singing it out, better yet Shout it out!!

Have you ever wanted to say something or explain how you were feeling but you did not know how to do it? Billie Holiday is just singing it out I don't know which song she is inging about but she is singing. Just about every emotion can be equated with this picture. She could be mad at someone, or sad and instead of crying may be singing it out. She sould be passionate about something that she is thinking about or excited about a new day to come. Sing whatever song you want to sing through Ms. Holiday and let is all out. You should never be afraid to let it all out. When you let it all out it does doesn't have to be for anyone to see or hear but just so you can have some peace of mind. There have been a few warm days lately, enjoy them when you're out in the sun and think about what you want to sing about.

Are we really ready for changes?

Last night ended the back to school revival for this semester. When the altercall was made I was really struggling about whether I should get up. You see this is very difficult for me because of how public that action is. Finally I asked a friend to come with me and I went. After thinking it over for a while I wanted to get rebaptized. Pray for me please. I don't really know if I can give up those things that may cause me to fall or stay away from my weaknesses. My girls (S.A.L.S.A., Inc.) please pray for me.

Krys

Just Another Day

Sorry its been so long since I've been on the blog Kelle, I'll try not to do that to you again. Guess what I have internet at my apt!!! I'm so happy. Anyway from now on I'll make sure and keep up with my fellow bloggers.

A question that has been onmy mind today is, "Why do people stereotype psychologists and therapists are so afraid to go talk to them?" Tell me what you think I would really like to know.

Krys

New semester and already DRAMA, But this year is already yours!!

This semester seems so promising when during the break I honestly did not know what to think. Jaquece and Jailyn don't worry the Lord is going to take care of you and bless you both. Mel this is definetly your year. Kelle this is your year too and you're starting off with the enperience of a lifetime. Danielle new experiences and trials only come to make us stronger. Candace keep pimping. Mellena yours is coming chica. I wish I could say how I'm thinking and feeling right now but all I can say is let God help you live up to your full potential. This your year ladies, everyone of you!! Claim it!

Krys

This may be our Year!!! 2006 Here we come!

Take this year one day at a time.
Know when to seize the day and when not to.
Enjoy the things you love most as long as you'll have them.
Take care of yourself, mind, body and soul.
Never forget to take time for you.
Give your heart cautiously but make sure to give your heart.
And remember that through it all God is your ultimate and best friend.

Give your best in the new year.

Go after it...

Life is entirely too precious to waste on the things and people who do not really matter to us. Many times we hang on to things that are not worth hanging on to. Or sometimes we hang on to things without knowing why and we end up taking them for granted. I read a book yesterday that was so captivting that I read it in one day. In the book one of the main characters was a woman that was searching for love in all the wrong places as usual. And though she had an interest in someone she decided in herself that he wasn't in her league and that he had to be taken. Later on in the book she ended up meeting this man and they hit it off. Just when the story was getting picture perfect and they were engaged, she was murdered. The book ended in a sad way but I was not necessarily upset about the ending. Life is really like that sometimes and we waste time not going after what we want and think could possibly happen. I'm not saying take every chance that there is because most decisions need alot of thought. But why not give some extra thought cause you never know what can happen. Do not waste your life, take chances but don't take chances that will cause you to waste your life. Lata People.
Please let me know what you think, cause I'm still contemplating on this.

Holidays are for families

In case you didn't realize Holidays are for families, friends and all the people that you love. Some of most bad times occur on holidays with families and when you can look back at the situations and laugh it is wonderful. I love my family so much and we're all going to be together again this Christmas. This will be my first Christmas with both sides of my family to together (this should be exciting). The only sad thing is that my grandmother is not with us, but its alright because I am hoping to see her again one day.

I am in New York right now and I have been spending alot of time with my cousin. We are so alike (stobborn and headstrong) that I hope we don't fight while I'm here. I love her with all my heart and I feel that she is my twin but I'm afraid that we're going to bite each others heads off. But yea we're going to have fun anyway, cause I don't know whwne I'm going to be able to see her again.

To my girls: Jailyn, Melanie, Candace, Raquel, Deanna, Mellena, Danielle, Jaquece and Hermique Happy Holidays Ladies!! Hugs all around and not too much bubbly. Don't do anything I wouldn't do!

Well I'm signing off now, Merry Christmas to all. Enjoy it no matter who its with.

Got Standards?

There are many reasons why our generation is called "Generation X". One of the main reasons is the lack of morals and standards that are set. It seems like no one cares who does what with whom or about their reputations. Then there are few and faithful who refuse to give in to the things that they do not believe in. Or even those who may venture out and do something but then decide that it is not something that they want to be apart of. Though the few and faithful may get discouraged sometimes about not being noticed, they should not be because it is seen by others. A friend of mine said that though guys may not say it they notice a strong female who has standards and honestly may be intimidated by that. So ladies if you are strong and know what you stand for and won't stand for then know that someone notices and admires your will-power. Even sometimes when we may make mistakes because of our curiousity we can say that it is all in growing and learning. One thing that those with standards take for granted is that way after they are set that they still believe in it and will have the backbone to stand for it. Don't be discouraged if you may have ventured away from what you believe but take a moment and get yourself together. And even if you haven't strayed away make sure that the standards you set are what you still believe. Don't take your will-power for granted but acknowledge your strengths and weaknesses and learn from your mistakes. And make sure that if you go against you standards that it is worth it and you won't regret it later.

December 20, 2005

It is 4 days before Christmas and I am just getting home. I drove back today to make a flight tomorrow morning to New York!! I might get a white Christmas this year. Its been so long since I've had a Christmas in NY. I have great expectations about this Christmas break. Not necessarilly presents but to have fun with my family. Merry Christmas and Season's Greetings to all!!

What if?....

What if we were to go back to the days where we didn't have cell phones and we could only send letters and not emails? What if we walked more and drove less? What if there wasn't a McDonald's only every corner and we had to cook our food every day!!! What if we stopped paying attention to the little insignificant things in life and started paying attention to the things that really matter? Then we would have to acknowledge what really matters... Technology was made to make our lives simpler but they have really made them more complicated. We just have more to worry about. If we didn't have cell phones we wouldn't have to worry about paying bills and having a job to pay those bills. If we didn't have cars we wouldn't have to worry about making sure our rides looked good cause we would all be walking. We wouldn't have to worry about our health because we would walk all, the freaking time! Now if you really think about it have technology made us better or our lives simpler? Ok, in some ways yes but for the most part no. But we have gotten so accustomed to having a gadget somewhere around us at all times that it almost seems impossible to live without. What happened to the days of just hopin that you would have a quater when you saw a pay phone? Though these gadgets are for our leisure lets not forget why they were invented in the first place. Don't get me wrong now I love, love gadgets but I have noticed that I can't seem to go anywhere without something electronic with me and I'm not sure if I like that kind of dependency.

Just something to think about... Like when you leave your cell at home and your entire day seems to just go wrong?... For a cell phone?

Ready for the Truth?

I got a real reality check today. I have always thought that my personality has been one that just about anyone could deal with and understand. I always knew I could be mean but I would have never considered myself a mean person. A friend of mine shed some light on me this morning whe I asked her a honest question. It has just hit me though what all of my friends have been saying all along. They think I'm moody when to me it is just that I don't have anything to say or I'm thinking about things so I don't talk. I knida feel like I might be misunderstood but at the same time I am going to take this opportunity to see what it is that I can change about myself. I know all my friends probably think that I am an evil witch but I'm really not I care about all of them and if I have ever hurt or offended them in anyway because of my attitude then I apologize.