Gone Traveling

At the moment I am sitting in my parents house and I am in the middle of doing my hair though I would much rather be asleep. It has been a long day. Yesterday I was running around huntsville trying to make sure I had everything I needed and then I got in Atlanta this morning and did the same thing. I went on a search to find a african braid shop that would do my hair at a descent price. But since I am poor that didn't exactly workout. So I decided to suck it up and do my hair myself. Now I'm about halfway done and all I want to do is sleep. I'm excited about going to Trinidad and seeing my family. I still get a little nervous on planes but I have more than enough books to comfort me. LOL. Anyway if you have time to check the blog I can give you an update and show you some pictures of Trinidad and Tobago. Oh yea and if you have a request for a souvenoir let me know asap. Lata guys, pray for me and I will be praying for you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Speak Lord.

I'm actually scared of the future. I never been afraid of this before but now I am.

"There is not fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love." 1 John 4:18

Please pray.

Done with the interrigation process!

For every problem or decision in my life I have questioned God continually. And when I didn't get the answer that I wanted, the way that I wanted it answered I got mad. I been mad at God so much and honestly I should have been mad at myself for not trusting Him more. I heard I poem by Maya Angelou in which she stated that we interrigate God as if we have a right to. How can the clay question the potter, that just doesn't make sense. I believe that my journey to trusting God completely is just begining, though it took a while for me to get here. I have finally waved my white flag, and though I know that I will be waving it many more times, I am willing to continue doing so. I surrender, yes that's right Jailyn I've finally given up!

Trying new things!

Hello friends I hope that all is well and that we all find time this week to update our blogs. I really miss all of the profound thoughts.... I hope everyone is enjoying not having to study or take tests and is working hard to make that money!!!

On tuesday I went to a ballroom dance class and I sucked. It was funny though because I have rhythm and I can dance, but I didn't know any of the steps so I looked like I had two left feet. But it is amazing that people can know the steps to all of dances and make them their own. I really enjoyed it. I have been catching up with friends and trying to keep in contact with everyone while trying not to stay in the house constantly. I've been going swimming and working hard or at least acting like it. Enjoy everyday guys and try new things so that you can have stories to tell when we all get back. My little boo is growing and smiling and talking to everyone. Here is a recent picture. I love you all and I'm praying for you guys.

And another one!

The Lord has blessed! I needed to get a steady client at work and I got one! Thanks to the Lord. That is a wonderful blessing and that is just one of the many that I could share but I don't think that anyone has that kind of time. I went to my family reunion last weekend and it was much better than I thought it would be. I saw cousins that I haven't seen in a while and met others that I did not even know existed. And of course it was great to see my people that I haven't seen in months. Actually coming back to hunsville after that was kinda bittersweet, part of me started to wish that I had went home for the summer. But its all goodI'll make it eventually. For some reason after reading some devotion today I feel empowered as if I can do anything. yea but other than that nothing new is going on with me. I've been thinking about alot lately so maybe one day I'll share it with you. Peace, Love and Blessings SALSA!

May 25!!

May is over already! I'm still thinking that school just got out but time is going to fly by so quickly. The Lord has blessed me so far by allowing me to get more cases at work and hopefully they will just continue to pickup. I am very happy that Kell is back, I've missed her sarcasim! But I am sad that Mellena is leaving so soon. Thank you all for prying for my family cause so far things have worked themselves out and I know God is working on the rest. I'm going home thisweekend for a "family reunion" and for Mi'chelle's graduation. Mel, J can yoiu believe that girl will be a OC with us in august? Man we're getting old. Anyway my nephew "boo boo" is too cute and he's getting fatter (YES!!). Anyway that's the update for now. Praying for you all.

Loser

OK I wrote a nice long blog for you guys and it erased sorry but I cna't think to write that all again. Sorry until next time, or else call me and I'll tell you. Technology really sucks sometimes.

Only the begining

So far this summer I have gotten myself into some things that I may not do or that I haven't done in a while. I'm sewing, crocheting, already read 1 and half books, and started working on my scrapbook. That is only a few of the things that I have planned for this summer. I have high hopes for this summer and hopefully I won't be disappointed. I really fell something good coming this summer, I don't know what it is but I hope I'm not getting my hopes up for no reason. Well until next time....

Seize the day!

My prayer circle...is you..

Yes all of you are in my prayer circle and I am asking that you pray for my family. There are some situations going on that only the Lord, and I mean only He can handle. Who else do you turn to when it is only possible with God. Please pary that his will be done and that the best and not the worst will come out of this.

Thanks guys.
Krystle

Ungrateful, Maybe?

It is obvious that we take alot for granted. Who would have thought that a drive home after finals would be the last day that two girls would be alive? Okay understand what I am saying for a second. They were not at the club or in a place where someone would assume that it would happen. I just hope that they were living right and they both were able to have a relationship with God. And if this is not enough of a wake-up call for some I don't know what it will take to wake them up. I also found out that a distant cousin of mine was found dead in his cousin's house last night. It seems that there was a robbery and he was shot.He had just graduated from aeronautical school and was about to move because he received a job. Once again he was nto out in aparant danger, though he could have been. All of the things that we worry about mean nothing if we won't be saved one day. Let's not take anyone or anything in our lives for granted. And though you may not always want to, let those who you care about know that you love them, whether is through actions or words. Often we underestimate the power and influence that we have through our actions, words, and even our lack of action. I found this quote by Nelson Mandela that I believe is very powerful.

Our Greatest Fear

Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech



Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,but that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinkingso that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine,we consciously give other people permission to do the same.As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others.

For all who do not know I love you all and you have a special place in my heart.

Starting a Trend

I spent another weekend at home, again, not sure if it was by choice though. Both Alumni weekend and Youth Congress weekend I did not do what I usually would, instead I stayed away from the crowds. I actually have felt more relaxed and I have come to terms with the fact that I am not a "social butterfly". Learning to be comfortable with myself is one of the hardest things that I have had to do, but I am having fun doing it. Everything around me is changing and I am learning to deal with it without rejecting it. Everyone around me is changing and growing also. Good job guys!

Alright well that's all for now. This is the last week of classes and I know that I do not feel like studying anythign or looking at a single book. I just want to sleep, eat, an dmake money. Okay so I'm jumping the gun a little bit, I know I have to take my finals first. 4 more days, and I can take a break.

Counting my blessings.

There is someone who is apart of my life that was not here this time last week...It's Daniel (Boo Boo) Jones!!! He came into the world calmly but determined to be outside of the womb. His mother, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and well wishers are very happy to have him here. Welcome Daniel!!

Officially 1 week and 5 days left of classes and I feel like I have senioritis, only I'm not a senior. Lately there has been alot more procrastinating on my part and its taking over my life!! But I feel mentally and physically drained from school. In spite of my slackness God has been blessing me and I am doing well in my classes because of his grace... It is only through him that I made it through nursing this far, while doing fitness & wellness. So I have to thank God for these blessings.

Last week was trying for my emotionally. I went to work two weeks ago for my evaluation. Basically on a scale of 1 to 4, (1 being the best and 4 the worst) I got a.... 4. A 4!!!! Can you believe it? I was devastated because I have being trying very hard to do everthing that they expect of me. What makes me upset is that as far as work int he store goes I was always the one trying to find something to do and when I was given a task I always worked until it was done. I worked hard but they did not seem to care about that. I didn't know what to do. They put me on probabtion and said that I would be evaluated again in may. But Monday something told me to go to a Senior Assisted Living Center and apply. I went and on the spot I was given a job for after school finished. Also the nursing Recruiter a Huntsville hospital called and told me to apply again so that she could check out my application!! God is so good!! The Lord is blessing me and giving me options, Praise Him!!

Issues with trusting God have kept me back from many blessings that I know he has waiting for me. There is so much I want to trust him with and I am workign on doing that one bit at a time. And because he hasn't failed me yet my strength in him is building. I don't know when I'll be ready for the blessings that he is holding onto for me but I know that they are there.

Have a great week! We are almost done with this school year. (Okay so I got a little happy with the camerra on Sat. nite :), oops)

Counting Down !! Part 2

There are officially 2 weeks and 5 days left of school for this semester. The reality of the ending of my junior year is really setting in. I find myself often looking back at this school year and what has and hsa not taken place. I will be 21 this year and I find myself re-evaluating everything that I though I was and what I want to become. I know that I am not the only one who has been doing this either. In the movie 30 Years to Life a group of friends were evaluating their lives and what they hoped to have had by this time. If you have not seen this movie you should...it was like looking at my own personal circle.

While talking to a friend this week I realized that many people on campus are looking and seeing the same things that my friends and I always talk about. He said something interesting..he said that there are too many goodlooking people on campus who were unhappy. I found this interesting because I am hearing of more situations where those in relationships are leaving them because they are not happy and somehow they thought that being in one would make them happy. The reality is that most people who are not happy with themselves will not be happy with someone else. While talking to my friend he asked me what I thought would be the best way to avoid ending up in a situation like that, and I found that odd because he was so much older than me and I felt like he should be shedding some wisdom in my direction. But I answered him saying that it is important to find ourselves and be comfortabel with yourself. I feel like my girls and I are on the road to self-discovery and I told him that it is important to have peopl ein your life who won't let you feel sorry for yourself and who will tell you the truth. My friend was very impressed and told me that though there were goodlooking people on campus he was looking for something that was really of substance, his words were actually something with some fire... Wraping this up, it is important to exercise faith (and I'm speaking to myself too..) and trust God. It is obvious that he will not fail us or intentionally do wrong to us, clearly how far we have come is an indication of that. Just be prepared in case your day is today... I believe that is the time that I should be working on me. This is probably the only time that I will have in my life to worry about only me. I might as well enjoy it.

Boy have times changed...

The things that I have seen change in my lifetime is sometimes hard to fathom. Times are changing for the good, even though some seem like they are for the bad. I don't know about anyone else but I want to be ready for whatever comes. No one knows the future but we can put our best foot forward and step out on faith. Oh the things I have seen and the people that have changed... I just chuckle to myself. Kell so much to tell you when you come back!

Peace, Love, Blessings to all!

A New Day, New Beginings!

Smiles all around!!! I'm ready... I really am. The sun is shining and I am ready.

Counting Down!!

Our days are numbered guys!! We have 5 weeks and two days left of this semester. Though it seems it is getting harder it is exciting to me because that means that the race is almost over. Yesterday was such a rainy day that I wanted to enjoy by sleeping. Though I did not get to do that I still thought about it and it made me smile( yea, yea I know its weird).

Anyway so I have a thought and a question. We should do whatever it takes to make love work right? But honestly what should the extent be of one's personal sacrifice of their commitment to their love? Okay I know this is weird guys but I've been thinking that if you cannot sacrifice soomething for the ske of your love then you are not giving love your all. Okay for all the single people (me too!!!) how much do you think you will be willing to let go, give up, or sacrifice for the sake of your love. And how do you know you have gone too far? I know in reality that we will not truthfully be able to answer this question unless you are in the situation but try to be honest with yourself. I know that if I am honest with myself there will be a limit to my sacrifice for love and my reason is for another blog, another day.

What do YOU think?

Can I rewind just a little bit?

I had a really nice and heartfelt blog but it was erased just when I was about to post it. I had a very good weekend. The Tennessee Aquarium was nice with lots of laughs (just gotta love my friends). So many different reptiles and they looked different and unique. It made me proud because that means God made no mistakes when He made me. We are all different for many reasons and once we become comfortable with that we can stop worrying about the petty stuff and start being thankful for what we have.

Okay so in other news I am really starting to slack off in my school work. It is so hard to push myself to spend that extra time in the books. I feel like I wasted my Spring Break doing work when I shouldn't have done anything at all. Now I want a break and I can't get one. It sucks but I will have to find a stress reliever to get my mind off of school in the weekends. I like to think of this temporary though and that soon I'll be back on the grind and not stressing out like this.

Praying for you all that read the blogs regularly. Kelle, Javario, Mel, Jailyn, Danielle and Matt. I hope we all get that burst energy to help up finish up the school year right.

Trying to make it.

Okay so this week has been so difficult that saying it has been hard is an understatement. I know that everyone is feeling the burn of the last few weeks, 7 and 2 days to be exact. Remember the race is not for the swift but for those who perserve to the end.

Krystle

Recap of spring break and then some....

Days 4 and % of Spring Break were very relaxing. I went home to Atl and just enjoyed being taken care of again. I slept, ate and did some school work, all while chilling with the fam. Though I did not get all of my work done I have no regrets, I enjoyed myself.

I have an issue I would like share about RESPECT. Now this is something that we think we know all about. We may say that I will respect those who respect me or that if someone demands respect then they should get it. Okay well while talking to some males I've realized that there is a problem in our generation. There is a lack of respect for women on all levels. I have heard males say if a female doesn't respect herself then he will not respect her and treat her like a lady. THAT IS A PROBLEM! Sadly I've seen much lack of respect all around. It is bad enough to see it on t.v. or in a public place but at church? I've seen men not give there seat to an older lady on the bus. I've seen children disrespecting adults to their faces. I've even seen males who are my age talk to a female, calling her out of her name and she answers. Where has all the respect for ourselves, women, and our elders gone. It is not fair to say that there is nothing that can be done. I was talking with a guy who said to me that he would never hold the door open for a woman who did not respect herself. I told him that wasn't fair to her or to the other women out there. What happened to the days when guys pulled out chairs, offered up their seats, or carried heavy bags. There are still some guys who will do that but what about the others. Just because a female does not hold herself up to a certain standard to be treated does not mean that she should not be treated that way. Lets be real, today we can never be sure that everyone is taught respect but those of us who do know should mention it. When a girl is putting herself in a category with a piece of meat we should say something. And we should call guys out when there is blatant disrespect happening right in front of us. It seems that maybve everyone needs to be reminded that it could be their mother, sister, aunt, or grandmother being disrespected and their father, brother, uncle, or grandfather disrespecting them.

DAY 3

Okay so Day 3 has been a long day. I went to work for a few hours and then went visiting for a second. Today was such a beautiful day outside and I was trying to enjoy it as much as I could. I was thinking about somethings today and I would like to share one of those things with you. Think of us. Think of the things we talk about now. Think about the asperations that we have for ourselves. Where do you think we'll be a few years from now. What if all that we hope for ourselves comes true? What if it doesn't? I was jsut thinking of that and I wanted to let you know.

Hits and Misses of the Day

Hits
- My boss buying me lunch though it did not taste that good
- Getting an extra hour in at work
- A visit from some friends
- Getting to wash my car (its been months)

Misses
- Not getting my school work finished
- Among other things that I can't remember (guess they weren't that important)

I hope everyone is enjoying this break and will be ready to get back and finish these last 8 weeks. Nite.