Day 1

Today began day 1 of my Spring Break. I am so focused on two things this week, working and getting my work done. Plan for spring break did not work out for lots of reasons, but its alright but it will all work out (I'm really trying to believe that).

Hits of the day
- The huntsville art museum
- Being able to pic up extra hours at work
- Having great friends to help me out even when they may not want to

Misses of the day
- Not having my car (Kerwin needs a car asap)
- Very bad hair
- Not getting any school work done

Anyway I have a few petitions of God that I would rather not say, but I ask that you please just pray for a breakthrough for me. That's all for day 1. Nite.

Tyler Perry....

For all those who haven't seen Madea's Family's Reunion it is a must-see. I have seen the play and the movie was nothing like I thought is would be. The movie is just wonderful and a serious discussion movie. It mades me and my girls think and gave us hope of something better for us one day. During the movie I was saying to Jailyn, "I'm gonna pray, I'm gonna pray.." Then I was saying " I'm gonna pray and I'm gonna fast..." and it was so crazy but I thought I was gonna cry. By the end of the movie I had hope that somewhere out there was a wonderful that God has been preparing for me. I can't wait to see what God has for me. But for now I know that I am not ready for him. I would like to think that I am preparing to give my best to him and he is preparing to give his best to me. There's no need to half step, it is possible to get the best man possible as long as I let God do it for me. Please see this movie, bootleg or not, it will help you to embrace all of the love around you with family, friends, and otherwise. Love you all!!

Spring Break!!!

Bittersweet that all I can say to describe this. I'm glad that we're getting a break from classes but at the same time I'm mad cause I'll be in huntsville. That was fine during Christmas break because I was so broke but now its not. I'm still broke but I don't want to be here. But I'm gonna take this time to make more money(hopefully) and get my school work done. Next year ladies I will not be doing this so we gotta get our stuff together or else we're all gonna stay here together.

Okay so you know I'll be updating everyday right?! :)

P.S. Here's a picture fromthe banquet for those who were not there.

Just Ask!!!

So scratch that last blog. Just ask and you will know if that person is worth breaking down over or trying to figure out something about. Sometimes is takes being straight up and asking for what you want to find out who is really is worthy of your time. Just make sure you ask God to guide your steps and definetly your words. And prepare yourself for any answer. Make God your number 1 consultant. Friends may give you good advice but sometimes they can't cut it. Talk to God about everything because He will hear and answer your prayer. I tried to upload a pic so u can understand what I mean but its not working so, I'll try again lata.

Songs that make me think a little bit...

Okay you know how you have those songs that make you think of...well I can't speak for everyone else but I can speak for myself. Mariah Carey's song Breakdown speaks of a young lady interested in someone but when they don't get the same response emotionally from him she acts as if she doesn't care. So many times as females we do that and act like we don't care knowing good and well that we do. It really hurts to feel rejected and know that before this person came into your life you could hold it all together. Then it seems you're doing things you would have never done before and before you know it you are confused about everything. LOL. I know you ladies feel me. Lets just say you get to the point where you feel like you're hooked and you can't understand why but you're trying to act as if you don't. Basically eventually you reach your breaking point wherever that may be for you. In Musiq's song Something he talks about a lady that he can't seem to get out of his head because there is just something about her that draws him. Its something in the ways she talks and walks that makes him curious that he doesn't want to leave. And when she asks if their love will grow he says he doesn't know. But if she sticks around then she will know. And he says again that because he doesn't know that he doesn't want to leave her now.

I don't know guys, I know we've all felt this way at some point in our lives. and sometimes when you don't think anyone knows how you feel there are clearly others who have gone through the same thing. It kinda makes you wonder if you should sometimes breakdown and get over it or find out what that something is about that person.

What do you guys think?

Play'd Again?

Thinking about be ing honest with myself has caused me to draw a couple of conslusions. I have avoided being honest with myself and those around me because of how I would feel. Doing this will cause me to have to put my pride and my guard down and make me quite vulnerable. Being honest with myself means accepting things as they are and dealing with them. I want to give up as I always do and become a man-hater again but I don't think I have the energy and I'm tired of escaping that way. My first instinct at most times is to hide or stay home all the time and sleep. I have always asked the Lord to lead me in these situations but it seems that this time it didn't work out and that it may never work out. I have to accept that and not give up hope but just relax and take care of me and wait for whoever he will be one day. One piece of advice though, everytime someone is not honest with you and you find out later it hurts so try not to do that to someone else. Be honest and straightup. So that everyone around you will know how you are for the jump. Okay for real you guys this is me being very honest and I honestly am more confused than ever.

Happy Love Day!!!

On a day like today a bitter/loving female like me would be depressed but this year I was determined not to sulk in what I didn't have. Instead I planned ahead of time and bought a shirt that says "Kiss Me" and wore it today. I woke up a little disappointed cause I knew what day it was but still I wore my shirt anyway. I gave gifts to my friends and other people who are important to me. I didn't get kissed but its alright because I was happy all day. I gave myself something to be happy about. I had to work tonight and even went in there with a smile on my face. I know that I do want someone that my heart skips for, that will make me feel all mushy, but at the same time is my friend. I want all of that but in time that will come. For now I just thank God for my parents, family, friends and people who I didn't even realize cared. Jailyn keeps saying its our year and all we have to do is claim it but first we have to be honest with ourselves. I'm still trying to understand what that means and how it pertains to me. But anyway I will ponder on it and continue another day. There are only 5 minutes left of Valentine's Day 2006 I hope you've told someone that you love them. Until tomorrow....
Happy Love Day!

Here's an Update!

Okay I don't have anything to talk about that I wouldn't be afraid for others to read. SoI'll update you on what you already know. School is hard of course but with God's help I've been able to take the time to study and do my best. Working has been a chore and sadly lately I've been quite strapped for money, but that's alright too cause the Lord knows. I've decided not tobe bitter this year, cause usually at this time I start to get mad the world and not just at men. I was on a rampage during christmas break and I was mad at all men (not really thoguh cause I still love them.) Anyway this Valentine's Day I'm gonna enjoy the day and not let get depressed eating chocolate and watching sappy movies. Nope none of that this year. Moving on to other things though, Kelle I know that you want to travel and I would love to travel too but in thinking about my future I'm not sure where I want to go after I graduate. Not even for the first year. So I'm just wondering where I can see myself, because though I want to travel I need to have somewhere to live first. Okay I'm getting writers block so ladies here's a song to take you in to the Sabbath Superhero by Brian McKnight and Fred Hammond. Listen to this song if you can. Until next time ladies(S.A.L.S.A., Inc.) and other guests, hopefully I'll have exciting something to tell you next time.

Another Day Just Chillin.

Another school day has gond by and I'm chillin now cause I've gotten most of my school work done. I've learned to consume myself in my school work and nothing else. But its cool though cause that is why I'm in college anyway. So... I have nothing else to say but Kelle I've been trying to remember to pray every night at 9pm. That's all until next time.

Krys