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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

So Scared!

Fear can keep most people from doing certain things or going certain places. I know that I have personally let fear dictate my actions many times. Dreams that I have had I have kept to myself because of the thought of failure or that no one would believe that I could do it. Even revealing my true feelings for someone have been haulted by fear. How much more could I attain though by letting go of my fears and living life?


For most of my teenage years and still presently I have a fear of water and drowning... I have almost drowned quite a few times and even though I have taken swimming classes since then I really don't know if I can swim because I won't go into the deep end of any pool. Watching the olympics this year though has made wonder how well I could actually swim if I faced my fear... I really don't think I'm brave enough to do it yet..(just thinking about it right now I'm getting really nervous) but I hope that one day I can face my fear and swim like a dolphin lol!

The way that I think about myself has the most influence on what does and does not happen for me and also how it happens. For instance, all of last semester I was so scared of not passing my exit exam that though I was studying I didn't believe that I could do it (with God's help of course). I think what led to my failure the most was my doubt and lack of faith in God and myself. My fear consumed me so much that I couldn't believe anything else.


I am learning to deal with my feeling differently now and maybe one day I can say that I was afraid of water but I tackled that fear and I've moved to the next one.

2 comments:

Mel said...

u kno....u've answered ur own question....lol.

fear is what we make it....just like life. just like the saying says, "fear makes the wolf bigger than he is"

that makes a lot of sense when we think about it. if you let it take over your thoughts...it will win over your faith. its also a trick of the devil...so, don't let it consume your faith. be in control of your fear and let God guide and direct you and you'll gain in the end.

have a FEARless...WONDERFUL day!!

Raquel said...

Krys I totally understand what you are going through. For me I just pick a weak person (or a person that I can associate with) and say to myself - if they can do, why in the hell cant I? JUST DO IT! said Nike

More importantly than Nike, If you dont know by now, my catch phrase and favorite Bible verse says that "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!" and girl, let me tell you, ITS TRUE! Its so amazingly unbelievable but ITS TRUE. Start believing it honey! Just believe it!